Dont really know how i have chanced upon this road i am on now.. hurtling down an abyss at breakneck speed clawing my way along the walls hoping to heaven and hell alike that i stop….
been sitting here in my room in front of my books for the better part of the day today trying to conquer what supposedly should be the easiest subject of our entire curriculm and i just cant… its not that it is difficult in the least.. actually it is the exact opposite with nothing much to study at all but let me just put it like this drinking a single sip of water is not difficult but with a python wrapped around your neck even that seems like your trying to glug down an ocean….and that is how i am feeling right now… totally uninspired because of no other reason than the fact that i know i can do better and that i have royally screwed up and if i have to hit bottom let it be my rock bottom the lowest i can allow my self to go and dig a hole right there and push myself even more because i think the only thing keeping me moving right now is going to be the simple face that i can and that there is no where else i can go.. no lower i can allow myself to dip and now with the eyes of my loved ones friends and family alike on me yet turned away in some sordidly ashamed fashion…. it will be my time to rise.. to shine once again and pummel it back into everyone who ever doubted that i had potential that lookie here notice this.. i am back and in a grand way at that!!
god that rant felt good…… further updates after my paper…
2 comments:
Ah the College life. It only gets worse from here man :P Enjoy it while you can lol.
Hey kshitij so I finally did visit ur blog so yay....all I wanna say is keep going to:I
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