I have been facing a kind of trend recently… one which i am not terribly comfortable with at all.. i have begun starting posts and then never ending or publishing them and for the life of me i cant seem to figure out why that is so…. some times i will write a lot and never push the publish button…
u know conversations with girls still completely fascinate me… and i must say one of the thinks I am completely mystified about is how much and how to deliver criticism to them.. are we never to say things about some of the things they hold sacred which varies from girl to girl by the way…. or are we supposed to find ways to do it without hurting their ego’s…. i really don't know about these things…but i guess someday i will
this has been one of the most relaxed prep times for me for my sessionals…. surprisingly so because usually i am super tense before any of my exams actually all of them but this time i have taken a devil may care approach and am going to go with that.. well the reason is not glamorous as me getting over my fears.. not at all in fact of how i wish though…. but in fact it is just due to the fact that i know that this time my prep for sessionals is so bad that i have come to terms with it and have realized that this is truly rock bottom the lowest i will allow myself to sink no matter what the circumstances and i must use this as a wake up call to finally pull up my socks and get right to work… no excuses and i am proud to say at least that i am proud of one fact at least that today as the first step of many i need to take that i actually took part in the discussions in class and am beginning to realize that it is one of the only ways i am ever really going to pay attention in class and i really hope that i can keep this momentum going… well here’s to a fresh new start
To coincide with that and the new found order in my life i hope to finally star utilizing this blog for the very purpose i started it to log my progress in the various endeavors in my life to which i am about to add one in addition to the myriad i am already pursuing… but before i tell u what it is let me tell you why i wan to do what i am about to …. a few days ago in an extreme duress which i am not at liberty to say what it was or what brought it on i took an IQ test to fulfill my own insecurities and found out that it had plummeted to 118 from a highest of 156 (a drop of 25% for those who care) i had got measured long ago when i was a little boy.. and while i am now terrified of taking them worried that it will show an even lower value i have resolved to working harder and salvaging the little that i have left by starting this book….
all i can say is that i really hope this works….
one of the other things i am toying with is giving the interweb an opportunity to actually analyze what i a m eating every day and give me advice on that because for the life of me try as i might i really don't know how many calories each thing i am eating is and as every Indian knows Indian curries are not something which can be easily described or nutritional value easily obtained.. this idea is still in the thought conceptualization stage and i don;t know if i will do it or even if i decide to go ahead i am not sure exactly when so please don;t hold your collective breath…
well that’s all i have for now maybe more will come befor this day gets over maybe not…
but for now Muchas Gracias!!!
see you tomorrow!!!
2 comments:
Well said man :D
thanks dude.. :)
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