4/4/2010

Re-energized, Re-vitalized, Re-newed... on my way back from home... a new era starts I hope in this Manipal Quest of mine... with a clear agenda of how i want to move forward with my life.. a few goals now clearer the path ahead now more distinct i carry a a sack full of happy memories to the great battlefields of chemical engineering again to hope to fight another day with these weapons light on my back but heavy in my hand :) :) :)
I know I'm rambling like a drunk fool but life is going to take a better turn i can smell it.... and here i come world here i come in all my fury take me on if you will...
Onward and upward!!!!
YEEAAAH!!!!!!!!

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07/03/2010

Well woke up today to a beautiful manipal sunday morning.. a gloriously lazy one at that…. studied for a bit put ishqiya and my name is khan for download and promptly went back to sleep…. :) :) i love the damn thing its like ambrosia…. aah to have the ability to sleep all day long to lose oneself in the world of dreams where unimaginable adventures lurk to be called forth the only signal they seem to need being a toss or turn of our head on the billowy softness of our pillows… man even describing it makes me want to go off to sleep again…. damn it feels nice….

but have too much work to do and PDC beckons….

and before she slaughters me for it HAPPY 18th GUJRATI B’DAY!!! to my sweetheart and one of the few women who rules my heart…. may you have a rolicking 18th year and experience happiness in everything you do and always remain glad to know the people you do :) :) :)

well off i am for now… maybe an EDIT awaits maybe even a review seeing as i am going to go for a movie this afternoon….

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03/04/2010

Last Revels In MIT(The last compulsory one atleast)…

Crash!!! Bang!! Boom!!! a friend is down….. sirens are wailing, hospitals are being made our second homes and in the end it alll turns out good… no longer have the energy to tell u guys all about it in excruciating detail but relax when i say All iz Well…

so i am off to the fashion show… hope to have my first post with pics up soon…..

bye for now…

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28/02/2010-One more Post

Don’t really understand myself right now… being extraordinarily selfish and i can actually feel the sludge of it rising up around me, if i was a stranger looking in it would make me want to hurl bile all over myself…
I really don’t understand why i am feeling this way… i should be happy one of my good friends has his family members coming in and its going to be a blast for all involved but at the same time I can’t help but not want to be sidelined.. not to be neglected just because some other shiny new object is there in the fray…the old toys deserve to be played with too you know…but i can not let it affect my best friend or the joy and happiness she is going to feel for these coming days and i have always found that writing helps calm my nerves a great deal so that is exactly what i am going to be doing… going to have to come up with a new scheme of writing these posts if they are going to become frequent like i think they are….

To build up on all of this my girlfriend has now had it up to her neck with the drama surrounding me and my best friend and i feel that now it just irritates her that i can’t seem to understand that its enough it might have been cute in the past but it is not now and now it is just highly annoying to her and to see her like that really pains me, even more so because i know that i am the wrongdoer this time, the onus of making her feel like this is completely on me and no matter how cool she acts with it of course she feels a little bit jealous and underappreciated when i go on and on about my problems with my best friend, i am going to have to stop that, yup it has to, i will now begin dealing with things without burdening them on her like i did today, in the middle of her boards for gods sake… what the heck was  is wrong with me….

well moving on to today’s new act of idiocy from my side it involved me getting jealous because she didn’t call me when she woke up despite knowing i was already awake….
why exactly that hit me i dont know, but what i do know that it has got me to this place, a place i don’t like and i am going to try my damnest to get out of….

First though i have to get to work… studies beckon…
ooh and situps too…. :) :)

Feeling better so see you later….

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28/02/2010

ITs the middle of the effing night and i just woke up.. bad dream, thirst or just to use the bloody loo which one also i really cant figure out…
If it was a bad dream for the life of me I cant seem to remember it at all… thirst i have quenched, bowels have been lightened…
i suspect however the real reason for me not getting sleep is another one entirely….
last night at dinner something happened, a misunderstanding I must admit at the very offset, where in i was giving my best friend’s aching shoulders a massage and as the fates would have it who gain glee in such matters a misunderstanding between me and another friend occurred and i walked off in a huff… should have just sit there and sorted stuff out but that didn’t quite work out… but thankfully the misunderstanding was cleared off soon enough… and i hope that things become all well soon…

Trying to make a few edits to my blog and make it more soothing to the eyes, have tried out a new theme but to customise it to the way I like it i may have to learn HTML so that becomes another thing on my todo list…god the list just goes longer… been contemplating a move to wordpress too as lots of friends have been telling me it is pretty darn awesome plus it gets lots of readers too… so lets see… but for now i am more than happy with blogger….

well its past 4 in the morning anyways and sleep doesnt seem to be on the horizon but the sun certainly does, so lets move on to the to-do list for today, hmmmm i got to study some more PDC which i studied very little of yesterday.. boredom strikes me easily you see…. and situps yes situps must be done… mood was too shot yesterday so :(…

and lets see what other adventures sunday holds…

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27/02/2010

Tomorrow is a Sunday and as every Sunday does it too begets a new start.. a few new promises.. old ones reiterated again and life moves on….
well straight off the block the laziness monster seems to have hit me again and this week has been one hell of a ride… don't even remember most of the stuff that happened this week but it was good.. for growing for life and everything in between….
You know that is one of the things i have noticed consistently through out time i, that a few things might affect us terribly for a couple of hours or even days but then a week down the line or maybe 2 at max everything peters put nothing seems to matter and a growing realization hits me that the only way to keep these memories close to be able to truly grow from them is to write about them.. if not directly like this then indirectly in the form of a poem a story or anything else will do… just don’t let them fade away cause it is going to be one of the worst things you could be doing to yourself.. for example the fight that i had with my best friend a couple of days back or the confusion i am under right now it all matters it all helps us grow up and it all makes a difference to who we are as people and i know that lots of people would say that the unconscious mind sees and remembers all but i think if we just give our conscious mind an opportunity to refer back to a time it will work in tandem with the unconscious and make us greatly enhanced as human beings if nothing more…
that’s why one of my goals this week is to start blogging a lot more… expressing stuff as and when it happens… not holding back for nothing more than to have a reference point good or bad from which to grow….
often one of the reasons holding me back is the feeling that if the person i am going to talk about happens to read my blog then they might feel bad or hurt and now while i agree that my commentaries over here will have to be tempered what i also say is that this is my space my little eden in this chaotic world and its my life here…. so let me be.. imbibe it in the spirit i meant it and don’t let political correctness creep in here too because it may do more damage than good….
OK now moving on to other things, i measured my weight today and was glad to see the scales finally start to dip in the reverse direction it was 76.26 Kgs :D :D
That really made me glad but i wonder where the weight is going because i never really can feel my stomach go in but the weight still drops so my guess is that it will only work if i start working out so hence sit ups here i come again… i really hope that by the end of today before i am knocked out by the sleep monster i have started the regimen again….
Started studying PDC (Process Dynamics and control) today and really like the fact that because i was paying attention i was able to recall most of it and i hope it only gets better from here on forth….
really have to start studying for CAT 2010 though and with all the effort my roomies putting in its got me a lil scared,….
alright my fingers are getting a lil tired :P so see you all later or tomorrow if my promise holds…
Siaonara!!!

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20/02/2010

Good morning world!!

This post comes amid a lot of happiness, the source of which for the first time in my life i really cant explain but for some insane reason everything seems to just be working out in life….yes yes i know i might not have been fulfilling all the promises and goals i have promised on this blog many times over but the truth is that i am atleast making a beginning somewhere and that believe me feels good…. dragging my fast ass of to the library even when i know that no body is studying is a rewarding feeling in itself but actually opening your books and knowing what is written inside and being able to make almost complete sense of it… boy the elation one feels is something else entirely… :)

But not wanting to rest on past laurels today i hope to start BRain Power finally and properly and inculcate its program into my lifestyle lets see how that goes…also my sit ups program has to begin for the umpteenth time and this time i hope to follow it..

Gonna reclaim my bike today, it was with a friend who needed it for a coupla days had lent it to him… but with the new mess i am thinking of joining is going to have me eating so much that i am going to put on loads of weight if i dont exercise…. also getting the laziness off my fingers is another thing on my priority list right on top infact so that more posts fly off my fingers… but i can say this that slowly but surely my adddiction for this medium seems to be increasing with every passing day and the only thing i wish i had is a smart phone so that i could blog on the fly and share the various thoughts feelings photos etc i experience right htere when they happen on the fly but given my families current financial condition i dont think that is going to happen anytime soon so u guys are just going to have to content with this threadbare site and wait for my love for this medium to increase to such a degree that i undertake a total revamp of this site…

Saw a  bit of the hurt locker yesterday and i must say it is one of the finest war movies i have seen in a while, all our impressions that we get of the war in iraq and afghanistan always give us a very glossied of over ,seen-from-the-media’s-eyes view point into the conflict but this movie seems to want to express the true fears and conflicts which seem to plague the occupying forces over there far away from home, the fact that it is not only the occupied who are scared but even the occupiers are scared too, there are conflicts within the army too but somehow everything works and it is amazing how it does… my respect for the american soldiers fighting there has grown a bit just by watching the pain the ordinary fighter goes through, i must say though that i still don’t agree with the fact that they tortured prisoners(still do??) and the guantanamo bay outpost, but every country has blights on its record and the Americans are no less so lets give them a little lee-way this time.

Hmmm… nothing more to say right now… and i m getting late for class anyways, see you later

Adios Amigos!!

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